Monday, March 31, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
See the sign for the exit? And of course the cars passing through on the busy loop. It is actually pretty funny to me. We had our blinds open today and Anna said, "Mom, I can see the street sign from here." It was too funny. I had never really noticed it before today and we have been here two months. LOL! Yes, I took that picture through our blinds. I didn't feel like raising them. Anyhow, thought I would share. We always here street noises all day and all night. We are also like 2 blocks from an ambulance dispatch, so we hear sirens a lot too.
I will update tomorrow on our bank field trip from today. It was fun and I learned alot. (Like I said, you have to wait till tomorrow.) Have a good day.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
As for the nightmares, Anna had one last night. She never tells me what they are about, but the blood curtling scream she let out last night was enough to keep me up worried about her. She was petrified of something when I went in and was standing at the window in her bedroom screaming "Daddy! Daddy!" I went over picked her up, and she held onto me like she was afraid something was taking her away. She held tight. I don't think she has ever held me that tight. I just held her and rocked her for 15 minutes and then she was okay so I put her back to bed. I asked her what she dreamed about, but could never get it out of her. She used to have these type of night mares or night terrors regularly when we first got her, but then they dwindled away to almost nothing and have not had one in months. She has been talking alot about her birth mom, so I am wondering if this triggered something. She is adament that she wants to see her again and told her we would arrange a visit next time we head that direction. It will be a short one, because my plan is to arrange the visit as we are leaving town that day and heading home. I hope that the drive for 6 hours in between will help Anna to know that her bio-mom has no access to her and that we will continue to keep her safe. The last visit triggered months of continuous nightmares. We are hoping to avoid that this time and if it does happen again then it will be the last one for a long time. Well, it HAS been 2 and a half years since the last visit. We let her see her when Anna turned 4 and she is 6 yrs and 4 months. That is a long time. Anyhow, I really hope the two are not related.
OK! I better get moving. The lack of sleep caught up with me and I didn't get up as early as I need to. I get to wash my hair today, so I am excited. I straightened my hair two days ago. It is not too bad, except that my hair is naturally frizzy. I say that because it never lays down. It has always done what it wants and a perm usually is the easiest thing for me to do with it. I will get some decent pictures of it straight before I perm it again. I can only do straight so long. Here is a young picture of me with my frizzy hair.
(1st Grade Picture - Not too frizzy, but you can see it has a mind of its own)
(Younger Skinnier Me - Spring 2001-I worked hard to get my hair that straight)
See, I have always had it. OK, I gotta go. Have a good day. God bless you all.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
On the note of subtraction, we started it two days ago and Anna took with it and ran. She loves subtraction. We are still struggling with counting and adding most times, but she loves to cross out some of the shapes and then count whats left. Why didn't we start with subtraction? LOL! This is where we hit in her math book and I didn't think she was ready because we are still having addition issues. I just thought it was funny that she finds it so easy and fun. Her daddy even gave her "extra" homework last night because her couldn't believe how quick she was working the problems. It was too funny to come home to 2 pages of homework completed. She gets 2 stickers on the chart for that one.
Alright, time to get moving. We have school today, I work, Anna has cheerleading and then I go back to work for our monthly work meeting. Have a great day and I will check in with you all at the very latest on Friday about the bank field trip. God bless.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Here are the results after the appliques. Aren't those stickers fun. We had funny face eggs. Anna had a great time applying the stickers. She loved the faces.
Here are Anna's Easter Goodies. I am so tired of buying candy, that we really mostly give her a small toy. The bottom thing is a baby doll bath tub that she has been eyeing for a year and a half at Wal-Mart. The Easter Bunny was good to her this year. LOL! She also got the second Gigi movie. she was content with that. There of course was candy, but most of it disappears before she gets to eat it.
A picture of Anna and myself before church. This was before her hat went on and before the sweater. Aren't we cute?! I know, I know cheesy grin from me. Anna is so cute though. LOL!
Anna hamming it up for the camera. Did I mention it was raining and cold and right after this picture she fell on a wet spot and got the back of her dress dirty before church?! I took a wet wash rag to it and rubbed it clean. No one even noticed the dirt. I know, the tights are cute too. She actually had sandals to wear with her Easter dress, but it was too cold. She wore the tights I bought for next year, so they are a bit big, but the other size is too small. She is growing too quick.
Here is a close up. Don't you love the hat? She has never worn an Easter hat before this year. She always tells me 'no.' I was so proud of her for wearing it and it looked so cute. We got lots of compliments at church today. I loved it. She enjoyed it and didn't even really want to take it off.
Here is a picture at home. I thought it was pretty cute and I love how you can see so much of her tights. They are kind of fun.
Here is a picture that Anna took of me. Not too bad, for a six year old. I had on a new outfit too. I never get new clothes, LOL! It was a nice treat.
After her third, yes I said third Easter Egg hunt. She went yesterday morning, with the others, then she hunted for eggs throughout the backyard, then we had a mini egg hunt with the soon to be cousins at her Grandparents house. The picture was just kind of fun and summed up the day.
As you can see, we were busy. We also had a nice dinner out at Anna's great-grandparents. All in all, I would say that Easter was a success. We had a good time and Anna did great. She did watch her new Gigi movie last night before bed. It was too cute. Well, I better get going. We have a VERY early field trip today. Have a great week all.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
We followed the trip by of course some outside time. We love having a backyard. I just wished we had more toys in the back. We would like a swing set and a small swimming pool. Anna keeps picking out the $300 ones at Target and Wal-Mart. I keep having to tell her we don't make that kind of money...LOL! Anna and I kicked around a soccer ball for about 45 minutes. It was a beautiful day. Here, of course are pictures of Anna kicking the ball around.
We finished out the week, then on Saturday, Anna went on an Easter Egg hunt with her grandparents and some of her soon to be cousins. They were having so much fun that she ditched me for a second hunt with our church in favor of playing with everyone and going out to eat. I was sad, but I got over it. She had a great time and didn't want to come home. LOL! That's what happens when she has a lot of fun.
After they got back, Anna decided she wanted to "graduate." Our caps and gowns have been sitting on the living room floor (part of my clean out) for a few days and she was mesmerized. She got so excited about it, that we let her keep one in her closet. Here she is modeling one of our high school (yes, that was a long, long time ago) cap and gown. She had so much fun.
An update on the closet clean out....I am done!! YIPPEE!! I need to take a car load to Goodwill and try and sell a few things, but we HAVE a coat closet by the front door now! I am so excited and so proud of the stuff I have been able to let go of. It feels so good and our house looks better because of it. I am very happy with myself. Alright, I better go for now. Tomorrow there will be a post about our Easter Sunday. It was fun. More to come. God bless.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Are you wearing green today? We have green on all the way around, right down to Anna's hair bow. She has some green on her shirt, but doesn't really own an all green shirt. She of course has mostly pink. LOL! I did find one that had green on it and she has her hair in a pony tail, with a green hair bow, so that should count, shouldn't it? Happy St. Patrick's Day for those Irish folks. Who knows the story behind the green anyways? I just think it is a fun day to wear a certain color. LOL! I know there is more to it than that, there always is.
Closet cleaning update: I managed to get the coat closet cleaned out the way I wanted to. I still need to put the coats in the closet and buy some shoe racks, so we can also put our shoes in there. I guess I will have to buy an odor thingy too, because shoes cooped up in one closet become stinky. LOL! Right now they are under Anna's dresser and under my bed. I have half a mind to leave them there, but I REALLY want them in the closet. Our shoes were always in the closet.
Alright, I better get a move on it. I want to get some school done before we go on the trip. Yes, everyone else is on Spring Break, but we are working through it. We will take another break later as we have been off a lot lately from the move, Christmas, then funeral arrangements, so I didn't figure we needed another break. Hope you all have a good day and I will update you later. Take care.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
for AMY B from KENNEBUNK . We are trying to get her to win. Her husband said that if she won, he would personally pay for her to have a massage at Disney World!! LOL! He is betting she doesn't and we are trying everything we can to help her win. All you have to do is click and vote for her, thats it. She needs our votes. Right now she is trailing, but I know we can help her win. She wants to prove her husband wrong. LOL! Go ahead. You know you want to. Thanks all.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
The first verse is in Ephesians 4:32
Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.
"Here is an exercise: Each morning when you wake up, check the fertile soil
of your heart to see if any bitter seed has taken root. That friends who
betrayed you, the boss who berated you, the husband who barely understands
you-bitter seeds will take root in every garden. Weeds are like that.
"Next do this: For every bitter root that's come up, apply the greatest
killer of all-forgiveness. To forgive is to cultivate a garden God will
in, one filled with the flowers of kindness and tenderness." (Taken
from the Women of Faith Bible, Page 1455, Forgiveness Day 27.)
This was an eye opening verse for me. I know I can't do it alone, but I sure am going to try with help. It has been very hard to put that hurt and anger away. Now, it is fear. Fear of what will or more of fear of what can or may happen. This is all due to unforgiveness. It may never go away, but I do not want this fear dominating my life. I want to live life to the fullest and know that I was able to live up to my full potential.
Here is the second quote, again taken from the Women of Faith Bible, Forgiveness Day Day 30, Page 1472. (See I give credit, where credit is due.)
As the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender
mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another.
"Evie was moving and I helped her clean the apartment. Unfortunately
her roommate had applied corkboard to the wall using the wrong adhesive and it
was impossible to remove. We picked, scraped, and scratched for hours.
"Well into the process, I said, "You'd probably like to kill Janet about
now." Evie replied, "No, not at all. After all Jesus has forgiven me, this
"Well, I knew that. Something about the way she said it though, I've
never forgotten. It's easier to forgive others when we put it in the context of
what God's given us."
Again, this struck a cord with me. I mean, how can we live our life with unforgiveness with an outlook like that. Wouldn't we all be a little easier to live with if we though that way. I am going to try. I will laminate these (I photocopied them) and keep them with me at all times. It is not going to be easy, but who said that everything was supposed to be easy when you have God. It just means we are forgiven, right? I am going to try and keep this new outlook on life. I know there is more than just me struggling with this in the world today, so I hope this can help someone else as well. It was just what I needed today. God bless you all and I will try to keep my chin up. I am learning so much in God's Word.
As for forgiveness...the Bible and God says to forgive everyone, but I am having a hard time forgiving and letting go of one thing. My husband knows what it is as does my immediate family, but they don't know how hard of a time I am having forgiving and letting go. How do you forgive someone or a lot of someones of something so horrible, that it literally affects the rest of your life?! It will follow me where ever I go. It is the reason we are where we are at and I feel like I need to be ready to run from this at any given moment, if they decide to come back and haunt me, which they can and they have so much power, that they do it frequently with many people who have been there. It is a wall that stands there between me and God and I want it gone, but I can't let it go. It is always there and will always be there. How do you forgive someone of this? Please, I need verses, stories, support, prayer, anything. This is eating at me. I need to get past this, I really do, but it will always be there. I am constantly bitter about this one thing. I don't want to be this way, but I am only human. Anyone got any good verses? Would it help to write them a letter and say that I know they were wrong, and they know they were wrong, but I forgive them anyway? This is a hard time in my life. Myself and my family are having a very hard time getting over this one hurt. Please, do not send me the fact that I need to forgive, or that I am over reacting. I am looking for practical advice. How do you not live every day in fear of something? No hate mail or comments are required, as they will be deleted. If you stayed with me thus far, thanks for listening. I am having one of those hard days. Thanks all.
Monday, March 10, 2008
On a side note, we are trying to determine what to do with school. We will finish with the Kindergarten curriculum before the end of the traditional school year. Do we leave it at that, or do we keep adding on to keep us busy. I would just buy the first grade material now, but I am waiting till July 17th when Mardel does their big education sale. I will get the 20% off, plus my discount of 15% off. I would be crazy not to wait for that, especially since her first grade Language Arts will be $92. Add to that, Math, Science, and Social Studies, and it gets VERY expensive. Anyhow, what would you do? Would you call it a year, or keep the kids busy till the traditional school year is up? Let me know.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
On Friday we had a nice lunch provided by the officiating Pastor's church. It was really good and we had leftovers last night as well. We had try to prepare Anna for the funeral (all the kids went except for the baby) the best we could. It was a beautiful sentimental overview of her life and I learned alot about her that I never knew. Grandma was a great painter, although not famous, she played piano, she always had enough of everything at her house for ALL the grandkids to have their own, she and Grandpa were never apart until his passing in 2000, and the list goes on. She loved to sing classic hymns and she could tell you stories of her life as if they happened yesterday. I used to love and listen to her stories. I held up okay for the funeral as did Jeremy. Anna broke down for a while and really understood then that Grandma was not coming back. Tiffany had sent a beautiful letter with memories of Grandma that were just precious. It was a nice funeral and people all remembered the good in her. The ladies who did the music did a very good job.
After that, we went to the cemetery. Anna wanted to leave two flowers there, one for Grandma and one for Grandpa, so we let her put them on the casket after they finished the ceremony there. It was bitterly cold outside, but everything just seemed so nice. Late last night we went back up to the grave site and the flowers over her grave looked beautiful. Anna wanted a purple rose, so I let her have one. She understood that it was Grandma's flowers. She was also fine with the fact that Grandma has passed on and her physical body is buried in the ground next to Grandpa's.
It has been a difficult week for all and especially for the all the kids. I didn't think Anna would have to experience death this young, but she has handled it all extremely well. I praise God that Grandma was a Christian and that it gives us peace to know that she is walking hand-in-hand with her husband again and playing the piano again. She was an amazing lady from what I have heard.
Anyhow, thats all for today. Will resume regualr posts tomorrow. God bless.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
I know you can see the similarities too. You have to remember that we have WAY better cameras now and that the pictures I have of my sister were scanned into the computer, so not ideal, but you get the idea. Anyhow, I was dying to put some pictures up here before I send my sister back her baby pictures. (It'll probably be about two more weeks Tashia.) Hope you all enjoyed. I know I did. I think Graciela looks just like her mommy. If nothing else we can always guarantee that she is a mommy's girl. She will take mommy over anyone. I can't wait to see her again and my sister too. I really enjoyed my visit there.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Today is my mother-in-laws birthday. She is...shhhhh! I can't tell that. She is keeping busy though I am sure. Anna picked her out a gift and made her pink cupcakes. Ummm, not so sure about the cupcakes, but I am sure someone will eat some. They are strawberry and she said, "Grammy will like them." Not sure she will even want to eat one, but okay. Anna is still very fond of pink. She also picked out a gift with a pink flower on it and the card has a pink bow on it. Go figure. I hope Grammy understands that it was picked out with love from a 6 year old.
My husbands grandmother (Dad's side) is not doing well. She had a stroke not last week, but the week before. She is not eating or drinking and really they are just keeping her comfortable until she passes. Her breathing is really shallow and labored. She goes lengths of time where she doesn't take a breath, and then she gasps. It is really kind of sad and scary to watch, but she is ready to go be with Jesus in heaven. I took Anna up to see her today and Anna asked a few questions and then she was fine. She asked to see her, thats the only reason I took her. She is on morphine, to ease the pain, so hopefully she will pass soon and go meet Jesus and end her life here on earth to begin a new one. It will be hard, but she will not be struggling anymore and she will not be hurting. Prayers for the family on this one as well. It is going to hit a few of them really hard, but I know she is ready.
I guess thats all right now. We need to make a second batch of cupcakes to make sure there is some that others will like too. Hope you all have a good week and I will keep you posted. God bless.