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Wow!  Not sure I like new blogger layout for posting.  Looked the same till I went to post.  Now I'm way confused...but, thats not why I'm posting today.  I'm posting about Autism.

Yes, Autism.  Did you know that April is Autism awareness month?  It is.  We did the walk for Autism awareness on Sunday.  It was hot, but fun.  Did you also know that dealing with some parts of it can be challenging on a day-to-day basis?  It can.  Some people have more of a challenge than others.  Sigh, anyways, I'm really writing to vent some feelings.

We found out that my daughter dis-obeyed us yesterday.  It is going to cost us an extra $25 in fees for what she did.  Sigh.  Now comes the hard part.  I am not 100% sure that she did it on purpose.  She told us she understood when we were going over the rules of this new item.  She recited things back to us, but it never sunk in.  Anyways, so yesterday we allowed her some freedom and instead it came back to bite us.  She did exactly what we tole her not to do.  She must have done it all day too, cause like i said, we have an extra $25 in fees from one days work.  I took the item and modified it and password protected it so that hopefully it won't happen again, but then came the punishment phase.  Sigh.  Even if she honestly didn't remember why she did it, we had to punish her.  So, for the next however long it takes to pay us back, she will be working it off.  No allowance for her until it is all paid in full.  This could take 2-3 months to pay back.  Sigh.  It is so hard to punish her when she honestly doesn't always have a clear thought in her mind.  It is really a parental dilemma.  I am trying to help her learn how to do right and act right, but sometimes she makes wrong decisions and she can never tell us why.  She can't even tell us when she feels bad half the time, you have to use her visual clues to figure it out.  So, I'm just torn half the time.  Yes we discussed why she did wrong, but is it really sinking in.  I wonder sometimes.

I know some people will never get this.  Some might, but most of you have kids who can describe how they feel, act right in all social situations, have no delays, and no sensory issues.  Sigh.  Just a little vent.  Not really going anywhere with this.  Just needed to get it out.  I better go, so I can encourage my lovely daughter through school time.  I do love her very much.  Nothing would ever change that.  I just am frustrated right now.  I'm human.  If you don't like it, don't read here anymore.  Sigh....