Well, the day started out like any regular Friday, we got up and went the 45 minute drive to work. I worked, not expecting anything, but my dear hubby took care of that. I had a birthday card in my box by my 10:15am break. J had called the school and asked them to do something. Apparently this prompted them to realize that they didn't have any emergency info at the school for me, so I in turn had to fill out more paperwork. LOL! I decided that I just did not want a PB&J sandwich at lunch, so I went to Sonic and brought me a meal back. At this point in the day I was still feeling pretty down, as I was feeling lonely and sad that I hadn't gotten so much as a Happy Birthday from anyone at school, not that it's their fault, no one knew. But still down just the same. I did feel incredibly blessed to get a card from the front office as I wasn't expecting it. Still, my brain doesn't always think good thoughts....
Now after I got home, things started looking up. My mom had done another load of laundry for me and had made me cupcakes for my birthday. That was nice. I love the laundry help I've gotten this week. It's been great!!
We then went to lunch at Red Lobster and enjoyed it. Waiter a little odd and forgetful, but good food and we had fun. There, J gave me a Kohl's gift card and an ITunes gift card. The guys who work there sung me "Happy Birthday." I did NOT want to be embarrassed. LOL!! Oh well. Then it was off to my MIL's and a short visit there. She gave me a purse I have been wanting forever, cause I'm not about to buy me a purse myself. LOL! She also gave me some money to spend on myself, so I'm thinking I'm going to place a Kohl's online order. I need a bunch of stuff, plus I have a 20% off coupon to go with their sales. I am going to think on it over night. LOL!
Anna made me a little note and now I'm going to bed. LOL!! It is the 26th already and I've been up for hours, so I deserve it. Thanks for all who made my day special. I loved reading all the posts and well wishes. It made my night. (Yes night....didn't read most till just a little bit ago. Night all and thank you!!
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Birthday and New Job
Well, my birthday is tomorrow, and with the new job, where really no one knows me, I really don't think I will even get so much as a Happy Birthday, unless the cute little boy in the class across the hall remembers that we have the same birthday. (It could happen, but doubtful.) Oh and to top it off, I will be eating a PB&J sandwich for lunch, since I don't get paid till after 9am tomorrow morning. I used the little money I had left to put money on Anna's lunch account. Why on earth the child wants cafeteria food is beyond me. It always looks nasty and smells worse to me, but, she wants it, so I put money on her account. She will be having her first cafeteria meal tomorrow. I fully expect her to be starving by the time she makes it to my room at the end of the day.
So, I guess this is something I will miss about working my old job. There was almost always someone who made at least something for your birthday and at least wished you a happy one. Glad we are going out as a family tomorrow after work. I'm going to need it by then. Location will be determined based on what I feel like after work. LOL! I have one restaurant that I like, but don't care to be embarrassed by their birthday antics, so we will likely not go there, BUT we will go somewhere.
I guess that's all for now. I see an alert where my momma wished me a Happy Birthday on FB, so I'm going to make myself happy and go read it. I'll be back, as apparently this is an outlet for me. Talk later.....
So, I guess this is something I will miss about working my old job. There was almost always someone who made at least something for your birthday and at least wished you a happy one. Glad we are going out as a family tomorrow after work. I'm going to need it by then. Location will be determined based on what I feel like after work. LOL! I have one restaurant that I like, but don't care to be embarrassed by their birthday antics, so we will likely not go there, BUT we will go somewhere.
I guess that's all for now. I see an alert where my momma wished me a Happy Birthday on FB, so I'm going to make myself happy and go read it. I'll be back, as apparently this is an outlet for me. Talk later.....
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Do you miss your old job?
A co-worker today asked me if I missed my other job and if I was glad I went back into teaching. I told here there are pros and cons to each...I miss the people I used to work with, but I had been there forever. I like teaching, but right now, it still feels like the first year all over again and I still feel like I am missing info I need to make this a most successful year, but overall, I don't think its too bad. We certainly couldn't be at a better school for getting back into the swing of things. I really like the staff and for the most part, I feel like things are okay. I wished I had started earlier in the year, like oh you know, with the other teachers, but I think it will be okay. Still not sure about a lot of stuff, but I have come a long way.
They are doing great with Anna and she seems to be adjusting pretty good. She loves being around other kids all day long, but really does not like our early mornings, the drive and having to go to bed by 8:30-9:00pm, but overall, I think she likes it. She really does not like homework. She also does not like the fact that if she gets a bad grade, I make her correct it. But again overall she likes it.
I couldn't ask for a better position. I think God truly knows what he is doing, even if we don't. I am trying to rely on him for strength to get through this year. I certainly can't do it on my own....
They are doing great with Anna and she seems to be adjusting pretty good. She loves being around other kids all day long, but really does not like our early mornings, the drive and having to go to bed by 8:30-9:00pm, but overall, I think she likes it. She really does not like homework. She also does not like the fact that if she gets a bad grade, I make her correct it. But again overall she likes it.
I couldn't ask for a better position. I think God truly knows what he is doing, even if we don't. I am trying to rely on him for strength to get through this year. I certainly can't do it on my own....
Whirlwind...Timeline
Ok, I digress....I was keeping this timeline so I could post it about a month or so ago and I just keep adding to it instead. This is the ups and downs of me getting back into teaching after being out for 7 years. I would not change anything about those years. Staying home with my daughter was the best thing I could ever do and I will never regret it, but for now we are in a new season in life. So, without further adieu, my whirlwind teaching timeline. (Warning: I get emotional in parts....deal with it, or quit reading! LOL)
Teaching Timeline:
June 28, 2013-Get idea in my head that I might just want to teach again.
July 2, 2013-Apply to renew teaching certificate (Thanks to sister)
July 5, 2013-Fingerprinting for Teaching Certificate
July 8, 2013-Fingerprinting and background check complete (while I continue to wait impatiently to see if they are going to renew my license or not)
July 9, 2013-Check status in morning and realize that I am a licensed teacher once again, attempt to homeschool Anna and throw in the towel after one subject. Apply to two different districts by days end....
July 18th, 2013-Find out one district is only waiting on my references. Realize that it will be at least August before they can get the reference on my former principal. Work education sale at work. Come home to an application for another school district around here.
July 19th, 2013-Fill out application for other district and photocopy required parts.
July 20, 2013-Mail off third application
July 22, 2013-Get online and see plenty of jobs that would be my "ideal" job have shown up, but then realize that they are not available to apply to on the application link yet. Wonder if August will ever get here. (I'm not a very patient person when it comes to waiting.)
August 1, 2013-Talk to previous principal (boss) and ask her to be a reference. Had to have her, since I have taught before. Get her e-mail address. Talk to LISD district office about my application, as two references have not come back in. Come to find out they ONLY do e-mail references now. YIKES! Panic sets in. About 4:40pm, I call back and a nice lady named Stacy in HR is able to add the two missing e-mails and resend my reference forms out to those people.
August 3, 2013-Receive a phone call from a school about positions in both kindergarten and first grade. Offer me an interview on the 4th. I accept. Interview coming up. (You do realize that the 3rd is a Saturday and the 4th is a Sunday. These types of things just don't happen in schools. God's timing is impeccable.)
August 4, 2013-Interview lasts about 25 minutes. It is nerve racking. I interviewed with 5 people; principal, asst. principal, and 3 teachers already in there teaching kindergarten. It was for the kindergarten position. I left not knowing how it went. They have more interviews and then the pick the one that they think will work best for them. They then contact their district office and then district office contacts the person they chose. It's all in God's Hands. Always has been, always will be.
August 11, 2013-Feeling down. New teachers went back on Friday in the district I wanted. I didn't go back and the jobs available are dwindling. Maybe I wasn't cut out for this? Maybe I was reading between the lines wrong? Disappointed at best.
August 18, 2013-After contacting the principal, head of student services and the superintendent of the school district about enrolling Anna, we decide that we will keep trying to get a teaching job, but quit fighting tooth and nail to get Anna enrolled in school. If God truly wants me there, he will provide a place for her as well and in his timing. We will continue to homeschool until things open up. If it is God's will, the doors will open.
August 20, 2013-Looked on a local districts site that I had no intention of applying at and they have two positions open in grades I would love, kindergarten and first. I stayed up till 10:30pm filling out the application in full and getting it turned in.
August 21, 2013-Application is finished and all turned in. Its done. Not in my hands.
August 27, 2013-School has been in for 2 days. I had a moment this morning where I almost packed Anna up and took her down to the school to say test her and find a place for her NOW! It has somewhat passed now.
August 28, 2013-I received a phone call for an interview from Hart ISD. I never even applied there. They received my name and number from someone else. I would accept, if it wasn't 1 and 1/2 hours away. It is a very tempting offer, but all my money would go to gas to get there and back. Driving 3 hours a day is not do-able.
August 28, 2013-Applied to Post on a new Pre-K position that was just added. Chances of getting it are slim to none.
August 29, 2013-Called for an interview from Post. I can't believe it. Interview was more of an I will tell you about the school, and will you accept type of thing. Went to district office and met Superintendent. Met other teachers, saw room that could be mine. I accepted. I start Tuesday, September 3, 2013.
August 30, 2013-Filled out all the paperwork, worked in my room, signed a contract and enrolled Anna for a new school year. I can't believe that this is happening. I also worked in my room for a brief amount of time. Had to go to my other job, so I did not get to stay long. Anna is scared and excited at the same time, as am I.
August 31, 2013-Begin preparing for my new school year. It's really hard to prepare a classroom and work another job. Especially when the classroom is 45 minutes away. I am starting to see reality. I have a class list, and the other teachers decorated my door and placed names down for me on desks and in lockers.
September 1, 2013-Had another bad dream about all of this last night. Nerves are taking over. Need to find peace in God. That's sometimes really hard for me to do. We have been through so much and times have been trying. Feel like I'm doing the wrong thing and just want to go back to my comfort zone. This job is certainly not that. J reassures me that I can do this and it is the right thing. I need to stop dwelling on all the bad stuff and focus on the good. Lord, please help me. I printed out some color sheets on the topics we are studying. It's not ideal, but I need something to get me by until I can get settled in. Starting the new school year a week late and relying on the help of others is very hard for me emotionally. I have had to humble myself and accept the help.
September 3, 2013-First day was okay. I am all kinds of emotions right now. Not sure I'm cracked up to be a teacher anymore.
September 4, 2013-Today was a little bit better. Still uneasy. This is a big change.
September 12, 2013-Getting sick. I've been here less than 2 weeks. I can't call in yet.
September 13, 2013-Sicker than a dog. Called in to both jobs. Feel really bad about calling in. Ran fever and chills all night long. Went to the doctor. Bronchial and throat infection. It's knocked me down bad.
September 14, 2013-Called in to work again. I am still so sick.
September 15, 2013-Starting to feel better. Still weak and light-headed. But getting there. I was pretty sick. I don't usually get knocked down so hard. Two jobs is starting to get to me. Only two more weeks left. I can do this.
September 16, 2013-Back to teaching today. Starting to feel better.
September 23, 2013-Sick again. I need some rest so I can get well. Oh well, back to work.
September 24, 2013-So tired. Only 4 days left at Mardel. I love working there, but I can not do both. Too hard for me.
September 26, 2013-Missed lunch with co-workers today because of breathing treatments. I can't seem to catch a break.
September 27, 2013-Called in to both jobs again. Spent entire morning at the ER. I could not get my asthma under control. Ended up with a steroid shot, new antibiotics and a steroid dose pack. I also received two breathing treatments in there. Hopefully I can get well after all this. I am off work till Monday.
September 28, 2013-Missed my last day at Mardel. I stopped by to turn in my keys. They gave me some gift cards and good-bye cards. Bought some stuff for my classroom. So grateful for them, but feel bad that I couldn't work my last two days there.
Teaching Timeline:
June 28, 2013-Get idea in my head that I might just want to teach again.
July 2, 2013-Apply to renew teaching certificate (Thanks to sister)
July 5, 2013-Fingerprinting for Teaching Certificate
July 8, 2013-Fingerprinting and background check complete (while I continue to wait impatiently to see if they are going to renew my license or not)
July 9, 2013-Check status in morning and realize that I am a licensed teacher once again, attempt to homeschool Anna and throw in the towel after one subject. Apply to two different districts by days end....
July 18th, 2013-Find out one district is only waiting on my references. Realize that it will be at least August before they can get the reference on my former principal. Work education sale at work. Come home to an application for another school district around here.
July 19th, 2013-Fill out application for other district and photocopy required parts.
July 20, 2013-Mail off third application
July 22, 2013-Get online and see plenty of jobs that would be my "ideal" job have shown up, but then realize that they are not available to apply to on the application link yet. Wonder if August will ever get here. (I'm not a very patient person when it comes to waiting.)
August 1, 2013-Talk to previous principal (boss) and ask her to be a reference. Had to have her, since I have taught before. Get her e-mail address. Talk to LISD district office about my application, as two references have not come back in. Come to find out they ONLY do e-mail references now. YIKES! Panic sets in. About 4:40pm, I call back and a nice lady named Stacy in HR is able to add the two missing e-mails and resend my reference forms out to those people.
August 3, 2013-Receive a phone call from a school about positions in both kindergarten and first grade. Offer me an interview on the 4th. I accept. Interview coming up. (You do realize that the 3rd is a Saturday and the 4th is a Sunday. These types of things just don't happen in schools. God's timing is impeccable.)
August 4, 2013-Interview lasts about 25 minutes. It is nerve racking. I interviewed with 5 people; principal, asst. principal, and 3 teachers already in there teaching kindergarten. It was for the kindergarten position. I left not knowing how it went. They have more interviews and then the pick the one that they think will work best for them. They then contact their district office and then district office contacts the person they chose. It's all in God's Hands. Always has been, always will be.
August 11, 2013-Feeling down. New teachers went back on Friday in the district I wanted. I didn't go back and the jobs available are dwindling. Maybe I wasn't cut out for this? Maybe I was reading between the lines wrong? Disappointed at best.
August 18, 2013-After contacting the principal, head of student services and the superintendent of the school district about enrolling Anna, we decide that we will keep trying to get a teaching job, but quit fighting tooth and nail to get Anna enrolled in school. If God truly wants me there, he will provide a place for her as well and in his timing. We will continue to homeschool until things open up. If it is God's will, the doors will open.
August 20, 2013-Looked on a local districts site that I had no intention of applying at and they have two positions open in grades I would love, kindergarten and first. I stayed up till 10:30pm filling out the application in full and getting it turned in.
August 21, 2013-Application is finished and all turned in. Its done. Not in my hands.
August 27, 2013-School has been in for 2 days. I had a moment this morning where I almost packed Anna up and took her down to the school to say test her and find a place for her NOW! It has somewhat passed now.
August 28, 2013-I received a phone call for an interview from Hart ISD. I never even applied there. They received my name and number from someone else. I would accept, if it wasn't 1 and 1/2 hours away. It is a very tempting offer, but all my money would go to gas to get there and back. Driving 3 hours a day is not do-able.
August 28, 2013-Applied to Post on a new Pre-K position that was just added. Chances of getting it are slim to none.
August 29, 2013-Called for an interview from Post. I can't believe it. Interview was more of an I will tell you about the school, and will you accept type of thing. Went to district office and met Superintendent. Met other teachers, saw room that could be mine. I accepted. I start Tuesday, September 3, 2013.
August 30, 2013-Filled out all the paperwork, worked in my room, signed a contract and enrolled Anna for a new school year. I can't believe that this is happening. I also worked in my room for a brief amount of time. Had to go to my other job, so I did not get to stay long. Anna is scared and excited at the same time, as am I.
August 31, 2013-Begin preparing for my new school year. It's really hard to prepare a classroom and work another job. Especially when the classroom is 45 minutes away. I am starting to see reality. I have a class list, and the other teachers decorated my door and placed names down for me on desks and in lockers.
September 1, 2013-Had another bad dream about all of this last night. Nerves are taking over. Need to find peace in God. That's sometimes really hard for me to do. We have been through so much and times have been trying. Feel like I'm doing the wrong thing and just want to go back to my comfort zone. This job is certainly not that. J reassures me that I can do this and it is the right thing. I need to stop dwelling on all the bad stuff and focus on the good. Lord, please help me. I printed out some color sheets on the topics we are studying. It's not ideal, but I need something to get me by until I can get settled in. Starting the new school year a week late and relying on the help of others is very hard for me emotionally. I have had to humble myself and accept the help.
September 3, 2013-First day was okay. I am all kinds of emotions right now. Not sure I'm cracked up to be a teacher anymore.
September 4, 2013-Today was a little bit better. Still uneasy. This is a big change.
September 12, 2013-Getting sick. I've been here less than 2 weeks. I can't call in yet.
September 13, 2013-Sicker than a dog. Called in to both jobs. Feel really bad about calling in. Ran fever and chills all night long. Went to the doctor. Bronchial and throat infection. It's knocked me down bad.
September 14, 2013-Called in to work again. I am still so sick.
September 15, 2013-Starting to feel better. Still weak and light-headed. But getting there. I was pretty sick. I don't usually get knocked down so hard. Two jobs is starting to get to me. Only two more weeks left. I can do this.
September 16, 2013-Back to teaching today. Starting to feel better.
September 23, 2013-Sick again. I need some rest so I can get well. Oh well, back to work.
September 24, 2013-So tired. Only 4 days left at Mardel. I love working there, but I can not do both. Too hard for me.
September 26, 2013-Missed lunch with co-workers today because of breathing treatments. I can't seem to catch a break.
September 27, 2013-Called in to both jobs again. Spent entire morning at the ER. I could not get my asthma under control. Ended up with a steroid shot, new antibiotics and a steroid dose pack. I also received two breathing treatments in there. Hopefully I can get well after all this. I am off work till Monday.
September 28, 2013-Missed my last day at Mardel. I stopped by to turn in my keys. They gave me some gift cards and good-bye cards. Bought some stuff for my classroom. So grateful for them, but feel bad that I couldn't work my last two days there.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Life
Summer is coming, though not really for us. We fell further behind in what I consider a normal school routine and we will be schooling all summer long again. We will take one week off for horse camp, the first week in June, and another week off for my vacation and Family Day, the third week in June. There are no other scheduled times off. We are trying very hard to keep on grade level, but it doesn't always happen. I will be talking with A's developmental specialist on her next appointment to see what they recommend as far as math. We are still struggling with that, despite my best efforts to make it easier.
We are on the search for a new church home. That is an undertaking. We have a million and one churches in this area and finding the right fit for our family is hard. It has to meet the needs of all three of us and not just any one person. We are looking for a spirit-filled, Bible believing church with a good youth program and a good ladies ministry would be great as well. Should be easy right? Well, its not. We have been to a few, but nothing has just pulled us in and said that this is home...at least not yet. We will get there.
Jeremy's new job has been great. He actually can have family emergencies and can tend to them without the fear of losing his job. He has a great boss and he truly has a great job.
I have recently become assistant manager over the store I work at. I am having a hard time with the transition. I feel the need to try and fix things and make them right all the time, and I still want to do floor sets and help out in education. I'm hoping that as time goes on I will learn how to rotate between departments better. I have no doubt that this is where I'm supposed to be, but it is hard for me to adjust.
As far as my health, I try to deal with things on a day-to-day basis. I can't always do what I need to and that was part of my decision in switching roles at work. My RA has started going downhill and I think that is partly because it is getting worse, and partly because I can't take NSAIDS any longer due to internal bleeding. I didn't notice a difference right away, but it just gradually is getting worse. I feel like I have no control over my days and feeling, because I really don't. Random things will cause the most extreme pain now. That's all I want to say about that though.
I guess that's all for now. I'm not much of an updater on here, but there also is never much to update. Take care for those who still read. Prayers always welcome. Thanks.
We are on the search for a new church home. That is an undertaking. We have a million and one churches in this area and finding the right fit for our family is hard. It has to meet the needs of all three of us and not just any one person. We are looking for a spirit-filled, Bible believing church with a good youth program and a good ladies ministry would be great as well. Should be easy right? Well, its not. We have been to a few, but nothing has just pulled us in and said that this is home...at least not yet. We will get there.
Jeremy's new job has been great. He actually can have family emergencies and can tend to them without the fear of losing his job. He has a great boss and he truly has a great job.
I have recently become assistant manager over the store I work at. I am having a hard time with the transition. I feel the need to try and fix things and make them right all the time, and I still want to do floor sets and help out in education. I'm hoping that as time goes on I will learn how to rotate between departments better. I have no doubt that this is where I'm supposed to be, but it is hard for me to adjust.
As far as my health, I try to deal with things on a day-to-day basis. I can't always do what I need to and that was part of my decision in switching roles at work. My RA has started going downhill and I think that is partly because it is getting worse, and partly because I can't take NSAIDS any longer due to internal bleeding. I didn't notice a difference right away, but it just gradually is getting worse. I feel like I have no control over my days and feeling, because I really don't. Random things will cause the most extreme pain now. That's all I want to say about that though.
I guess that's all for now. I'm not much of an updater on here, but there also is never much to update. Take care for those who still read. Prayers always welcome. Thanks.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
How can you tell....
How can you tell if it is just pre-teen hormones, laziness or seriously a child with autism just doesn't get it? How can you tell if it is time to throw in the towel or seek outside professional help? How can you tell what kind of help your child needs if you can't figure it out for yourself? How can you tell someone that you feel like a horrible mother when you can't figure out how to help your own child succeed in learning? How can you tell if the whole world is falling apart? How can you tell everyone who thinks you are strong and a super woman that you are hurting inside? How can you tell them that you are lost in this fight to desperately help your child? How can you tell someone who truly doesn't understand what its like to constantly have to re-train them over and over and over again with the same thing and still it doesn't sink in? How can you tell them that your heart is hurting? How can you tell.....
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Christmas
How is it that Christmas has become so commercialized? I love my job, but when we hit a major holiday like this, sometimes I wished I didn't work retail. UGH! Even at a Christian book store, the customers are all about the gift. We will be having a much smaller Christmas at our house this year and in a way I am very glad. I am tired of the commercialism of the whole world. Its not about bigger and better items. Christmas is about family and Jesus and spending time together. I hope others realize this and spend the season celebrating with family and friends. On the plus side, we have our Christmas lights up and I absolutely love the glow of the tree lights. I'll try and post pictures on here soon.
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